#sorry if this doesnt make much sense im kinda tired

[spiderbitesandvampirevenom]

i think a lot of fantasy racism makes more sense if you look at it not as white people trying and failing to analyze real life racism, but instead as a look into white anxieties about the treatment of white people in a post-white supremacist society.

[cybersodas]

I notice you use a lot of pinks and blues in your coloring. Any particular reason behind that?

I can think of a lot of reasons- the easiest answer is that theyre my favorite colors! But also there’s a few other reasons, like the fact that they represent the gender binary/trans/bi colors, and also i like to pair them with red and blue; which are considered more the actual colors of megaman. Im not very good at explaining it but i really really like color symbolism djgkkdg

[proshiprodent]

Yandere! SCP 049 Headcanons

woah im actually getting to this anyways sorry for the long wait but im here! the reader is apart of the scientific department ^^ also reader is afab but uses they/them

SFW

God does he love you.

Though you guys were both unaware at first

He thought it was just a feeling of friendliness and care

Until he couldn't keep you out of his head. Through all of his research, the thought of you lingered in his head

He then started to feel something different in him.

He felt an urge to protect you from everyone and to never let you go. He only wanted you to look at him, talk to him and for you to only be by him.

For you though, as an ScD, you saw him react differently everytime he saw you.

He would stare at you, like he was in a trance. He would treat you differently from the rest of the scientists.

The way you two began to grow closer was when you interviewed him.

You guys sat there for hours under close watch by the foundation. Talking on and on about eachothers lives and personal things.

You know it was odd to be closer than friends with an SCP, especially as foundation personnel but you felt something for him. Love.

He could tell you felt this by how he analyzed you everytime you guys would talk. He felt ecstatic, absolute joy in your reciprocation.

Sometimes when the foundation had put you in for tests, you two would talk to eachother in his cell. Enjoying eachothers company as you guys talked. He would even show off some of his progress or belongings that he somehow had.

You looked at him as he explained his studies, deep in thought and showing interest to it. "See, the pestilence does not reside in other mammals similar to humans, They've given me orangutans to test on but it's just not the same.." You nodded in agreement as he continued, "Though someday I hope to test on a human with the pestilence. Or any human."

"Would I be on your list of potential tests?" you questioned

"God no! Your beauty must be protected, I must not ruin a person like you..."

NSFW

ohgod-

He tries to be gentle at first. Keyword: tries.

He has a knife kink no fucking doubt and loves to carve hearts into you

What does his penis look like? oh honey you asked the wrong person

So I think its kinda lanky. Definitely sensative. His skin has a greyish tint to it so I think his penis definitely is grey with a bit of red at the top. The red is probably something like #DDCDC9 with the rest of his penis being #DDDDDD and his balls being a little darker at #C4C4C4. I'd say the length is 7.12 inches soft maybe, 8.01in hard (wow im generous). His penis may not be that thick but it makes up in length. Girth is probs 3.10in wide. His semen production is kinda alot. He definitely has a curve about like 4-5 degrees towards him.

He'd tie you up and call you a 'gift from the heavens'

049 writes down your reactions and actions and i will die on this hill.

He loves when you suck him off but refuses to say.

SIZE KINK SIZE KINK if your small he will love you forever

Theres no way he doesnt have a dacryphilia kink

Fucks you for hours and says its for research LMAOO

HE WILL MAKE YOU BEG I WILL DIE HERE

sorry i dont have much im so tired rn 💀

He looked at you as you layed under him, naked and flustered. "Beg for it, love." you looked at him and wimpered "P-Please fuck me 049, please cum inside of me..~" He chuckled at your words and thrusted into you,

"Finally I have you all to me.."

Yes i fucking wrote that paragraph. why? because i can. I apologize (not

[ravers8fantasy]

Hello all, I caved yet again and made another OC to join my other one I made like a couple weeks back😼 this time, I fear this OC is literally an extension of myself but seperate idk she looks like me but she is the cooler ver of me. I might change her design as well idk dawg

theres some info on the pic but im gonna explain more below like about her gimmicks so uh LOTS of yap incoming if you want to read this also if smth doesnt make sense then just fill in the blanks with idk punch out logic sorry😭....

Ok so boom meet party rock her name is from the hit song party rock anthem by LMFAO cus I didnt know what to call her!!!

For now im gonna refer to her as a different person cus on one hand its like i want a self insert for my womans w.b.v.a thing but on another I wanna keep myself seperate soooo for now she looks like me, has similar experiences to me however shes not me uh this is still a work in progress🕴🏽

Personality: outgoing and chill

Weakness: hitting her ears hint: left is more sensitive than right! It will stun her for 10 seconds

How to get instant KO: if she hums whilst blocking, just punch her 😈

Nickname: humming bird

so because she Is kinda like me im basing her actions off the things I used to do when I played sports, I did hockey when I was younger and had to be told not too get too aggresive when playing (grrr my bodies my biggest opp, I had to stop playing because my left knee cartilage wore out)🕴🏽

Gimmick 1: the warning system thing

So take as her trying to keep herself calm, similar to the way I tried to keep calm in hockey.

They are essentially her moral compass thing, you annoy her enough times she will get pissed

warning 1 break: the first time you knock her down, she like "oh yeah this person means buisness, what can I do to get the uppee hand" and starts to get more confident and agile in her movements

warning 2 break: if you hit her in the abdomen or chest (cus yeah if you hit a breast hard enough it hurts af💔) she will get pissed

Warning 3, (last straw) : if you keep dodging her attacks she gets reasonably frustrated and starts locking in (if its a cheater shes up against or someone who taunts her too much, this will happen in place of the 1st warning)

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Gimmick 2: she has 3 special cut sequences which she does at random points during matches, one is mainly hooks and the other has an uppercut.

Hint: You recognise what sequence she will do depending on what song she hums. Also depends on what warning you are on but her humming might change to a different song and get louder or quieter

For her last straw move also nicknamed the pacific cyclone, she wont hum anything so there is no warning whenever she does it

Last straw/the pacific cyclone: is a quick hook to stun the opponent followed by a low spin kick thing like a 'cyclone' with her leg to trip them up. She will only do this if her 'last straw' is broken, you have to dodge it otherwise you get knocked down and will have to get up (once last straw is broken match enters second phase)

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Second phase:

She starts to move closer to throw heavy hits to the face, REALLY goes for the torso,legs and knees. She will try knock you off balance and will focus on trying to tackle you to the floor if you dont knock her out quick enough

(once knocking her out match ends!!!! She gets really tired from doing allat)

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Random's !!

No one really knows where she popped up from, she lives somewhere around Scotland's coast. Some are even more confused that she represents Scotland instead of Fiji especially due to her title as 'the swift pacific'

during her first interview after she became no.1 in the minor circuit she quoted po from kung fu panda

Interviwer: what did you first think or feel when you gained the minor circuit title?

Party rock: the dragon warrior. Its me! - wait have you seen kung fu panda

Interviewer: no?....

Party rock: oh, uh

Needs glasses desperately, keeps losing all her pairs (based off me irl cus where tf did my glasses actually go)

She redoes her hair during breaks

I would like to think she would have proper voicelines during the break cutscenes...

But honestly she would just hum to herself whilst watching whats happening in the audience and stuff she wouldnt pay much attention to her opponent

Might say encouraging words when they get knocked down cus she feels kinda bad...

Or might say nothing at all since shes an introvert and doesnt wanna make it akward if the opponent doesnt actually get up.

If she wins she gets loud af, all that choir singing really strengthened her diaphragm😼😼

She is so so so clueless to whats happening outside the ring, when shes humming to herself she is in a different world fr

Ok thats all, thank you if you read all this😭😭😭

[snowsays]

ok Keeper fans, I want yall to give me all your headcanons about Sophie and her friends (including Stina) that might fit a human au

the brainrot is real and I'm writing fanfiction for the first time in 12 years and it's a human, college au (tho the setting isn't exact, they're gonna visit Everglen and the college is gonna be Foxfire but other than that I think I'm gonna leave it up to imagination if this is a world where the elven cities exist as human cities, like a random human city called Eternalia, or if they don't exist at all). It's sokeefe, with maybe some dexiana in the background. I have some ideas but I need more info to fully pad their characters (imagine two hands filling a Sophie Foster stuffie)

For Sophie I'm keeping her fashion sense mostly t-shirts, jeans and sneakers. Not super baggy but also not form-fitting. Kinda like, baggy tshirt tucked into straigh leg jeans vibes. Not super colorful either. She still doesn't feel comfortable standing out.

I remember in book 1 she was listening to rock so pls recommend rock bands (I'm more of a vibe girly so I'll listen to whatever has a good sound and dont follow many artists/bands themselves so I only know like the 70s-80s classics and some random songs I think are cool, like Seven Nation Army and How Far We've Come), but I dont want to make her feel like a pick-me/im-not-like-other-girls so I kinda want to make her like pop too. And I already decided she likes the Deadpool movies (bc Amy has an X-Men tshirt in Nightfall, and Sophie makes a Rogue reference), but also romcoms. Also I'm thinking her and Stina would be in college to become vets

Biana is ofc a girly girl, I'm imagining mostly skirts and dresses, some jeans every once in a while, but also very stylish, idk about shoes tho, pretty sure in canon she wears heeled boots everywhere, but irl heels are tiring so...maybe sandals? I also imagine her as more of a pop girly with an edgy side in both music and movies, bc in canon she's not a damsel in distress, so I'm imagining she's an Olivia Rodrigo fan (not saying that Olivia is edgy...idk if she's edgy, I like her music but I wouldnt dare define it, she just popped into my head, as I said, I dont follow artists that much), and she would like both romcoms and action/spies movies (bc vanisher). I'm not sure about her major, I read a fanfic where she was a fashion designer and I like that, I was also thinking maybe art bc I just read a post that talked about how she painted over Tam's mom's painting in Nightfall. I know in the US she could do both but idk

As for the boys...I have no idea. I'm thinking Dex as a mechanical ingenieer (the spanish, french and english are all mixing in my brain and completely jumbled that word, sorry if its written completely wrong) bc ofc, technopath. Keefe as an art student, also he likes Deadpool too, and both beer and fruity drinks, and he still has Mrs Stinkbottom but I have nothing else on him, besides keeping his daddy and mommy issues ofc. Fitz I have no idea.

The rest of the gang I'm not sure if it's going to appear (I'm still trying to think if I should give Fitz a partner, and who would it be in that case), Tam might be mentioned tho, as the quiet fourth roommate of Dex, Keefe and Fitz, who doesnt like to mingle at parties much. But I'll be thankful for any headcanons you can give me of any member of the gang. Or facts that could be useful in a human au

This was longer than I expected, I'm sorry

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

OMG i get to talk about khamgalai ive been dying to talk about khamgalai im so fucking mad at khamgalai

i have said stuff about it on this post (sorry im only putting it here cause i started looking for it on my blog and couldnt find it until i went through a post sorter site and i got so upset about it fhdglh so ill have it here just in case i guess) https://www.tumblr.com/tetsuooooooooooo/710065228547866624/anyway-anyone-wanna-hear-about-my-muriel-tired-of?source=share

aaaand liike i started replaying the route recently partially cause i wanted to find anything that would prove me wrong in this matter and i am only halfway through but its Not going GREAT

because it wouldve all been perfectly fine if they didnt choose to establish that she apparently knew the whole time where muriel was and what he was doing. i dont know how much she saw but like. she saw it.

cause this bitch really saw muriel. child muriel. baby. possibly last of her kin. fucking living out on the streets homeless starving getting kicked around god knows what happening to him

and went aw lemme get a snapshot for the family album and just LEFT HIM THERE

AND IM LIKE BITCH I THOUGHT YOU LIKE CARED ABOUT HIM OR SOMETHING I MEAN SHE FOOLED ME WITH ALL THAT CRYING AND THE THINGS SHE SAID WHEN WE MET HER THE FIRST TIME BUT GODDAMN I GUESS SHES JUST AS MUCH OF A "PAIN BUILDS CHARACTER" BOOMER AS MORGA

cause okay even if it was like future visions n shit like thats their magic thing theN LIKE YOU STILL KNOW MORE THAN YOU DID BEFORE YOU KNOW THERES A CITY IN THE NORTH NOW YOU KNOW WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE AND WHERE HE CAN BE AND ITS A COUPLE WEEKS AWAY BUT YOURE A FUCKING NOMAD AND NOT THAT OLD YET

like WHAT is the reason she absolutely would not even attempt to come get him other than The Story Needs To Happen this is spiderverse all over again except now im on miles side i hate this hichjgs and like yeah ok the story needs to happen he needs to be the way he is and destiny and whatever but like when were in a story where we know theres a whole 5 other ways to go about solving this problem and its all choice oriented and stuff it kinda just. ya know. it doesnt glass my onions very much vnxviydy i dont know how to put it but u get it

and like

YOU THOUGHT WHAT?? WHAT THE SIGNAL CUT AFTER HE GOT OUT OF THE FUCKING CAGE HE WAS LIVING IN AND YOU COULDNT SEE HIM ANYMORE AND YOU THOUGHT WHAT THAT HE DIED??? girl dont FUCK with me you aint give a shit if he lived or died ok that was harsh im getting really heated this is so messy lol

its probably gonna turn out in a minute that she said something in the ghost realm that makes it make sense but i dont remember that all i recall is us hangin out and her calling me out for being a furry and them being all "u saw me over there and u still like me?" " aw of course i like u come give ghost grandma a hug" thats how i remember that going down fhxhyietfh so yeah ill find out soon enough

Ooh, I think I remember wondering about that when I last played Muriel's route! I'll leave it to other Muriel fans to share their thoughts on it too, since my memory is a bit fuzzy at the moment XD

@tetsuooooooooooo that makes total sense to be upset about though, especially when you're seeing all of this from Muriel's side! T~T I'll be curious to hear what you think as you keep playing the route! ^.^

[garageinc]

Last night i had the best dream ever holy shit. Lets start that i rarely have any dreams, but when i have one, its smth special for me, GOSH I LOVE DREAMS!!!!!

Long post TW‼️‼️

Okay okay i dreamed that metallica (ofc) announced the second tour in europe and ive bought a ticket. I feel it was in warsaw (sadly). I was in place and waiting for the concert. I usually get stressed for no reason in situations like that so i forgot that i wanted to be near drums, but anyway when the concert started kirk was closest to me but i couldn't see lars (bro im 1.6 m 💀). The first few songs were cool, i saw my best friend, and my german teacher (wtf) in the crowd, and then suddenly i found myself near lars and his drums (still being in the crowd), and also my second best friend was next to me. Somehow i had a small talk with lars i don't remember about what and he gave me his drumsticks!!! I guess it is all but the second cool thing was when they started playing new songs every time something like that appeared:

with each member. Really similar to loading screen from gta v. I really don't know why there was load in the background, and members were much older than james here but i couldn't find better pic, couse in my dream he looked almost the same to this.

And it was just a dream...

Okay i'm done thx for reading, tell me what do ya think bout it<33

(if anything here doesnt make sense, lmk and sorry for that im kinda tired rn)

I feel embarrassed bc of this post idk why, there is a chance that i will delete it in few hours

[eliluminado7]

im writing my broad opinion on AI art now that im on an autistic tangent about it. im kinda cooked from yesterday so sorry if i dont make much sense

my issue with (serious) A‎I art is not because of moral or ethical implications arising from the technology itself, but rather from the general userbase itself. like i believe most of us can fucking tell if something's ai generated when we see it right. Bear in mind i said serious AI art. you know i love a good sei‎nfel‎d screenshot of je‎rry and kra‎mer going into the void or geo‎rge dressed as a coss‎ack

anyways generally speaking the kind of people generating those serious illustrations are all either 1. recycled nftbros 2. porn freaks or 3. children. And im gonna be real i do not like that kind of AI art even if its just a harmless illustration of a pokemon or whatever. to me it feels like those ppl are either kids who i Do Not Think should be on the net, or basement dwelling deviantart incels who are like 'Computer generate se‎xy gard‎evoir vo‎re infla‎tion fe‎et pics'. the kind of people who wouldve had no problem stealing others' art. just sayin.

well actually theres a fourth category and those are companies and public institutions that use AI art (often as some sort of money laundering scheme, if i may add) and those are the ones ACTUALLY hurting artists because You See you could be actually hiring someone instead of using fucking midjourney or bing. this is a very common practice here in spain even if it ends up looking like literal shit, see:

also theres this yearly art contest in either val‎encia or cata‎lunya where ppl submit illustrations of snails and this year's winner was a very blatantly AI generated pic created by some turkish individual who is rumored to not even exist. its a rabbit hole but looking up bedhiran akagündüz (or, likewise, rubén lucas garcía) should set you on the right track

Now let me be clear: i vehemently hate anti-ai luddites and picrew fandomites and ive always been very vocal about this. and quite frankly im tired of the moral panic steeming from anything AI-generated as if it was the antichrist!!!!! you all just sound reactionary as fuck. AI art is certainly not stealing from you and the only exceptions to this rule are very very very blatant copies, and you almost never see those unless were talking about nft-adjacent ponzi scheme websites. would you consider collages theft? music samples? AI just draws "inspiration" (for lack of a better word) from the illustrations that it is fed because its like a tabula rasa and it needs knowledge, just like us human beings are inspired by other people's artstyles. the end product is something that doesnt even look similar to the data it is fed because it is an amalgamation of different styles that create something unique. is that theft? be for fucking real

this stupid myth about the brutal energy consumption of AI art generation as well as the whole ‘did you know that every time you generate one picture youre wasting an entire bottle of water????’ argument... im sorry to say none of that is true. ai isn't even the most water-intensive sector if we're comparing it with other industrial sectors like petroleum/coal factories or wineries or paperboard mills. training datasets IS resource-intensive but its normally a one-time process, inference (which is what you use daily) is not any less efficient than looking something up on google for example:

this whole 'carbon footprint' bullshit that has been sold to us is just a tactic to divert attention from the actual polluters which are corporations like coca-cola or exxon or bp. You know this you get your praxis from this website.

regarding the whole 'AI is theft' argument, im just going to share these tags that someone left in another post i made:

like a clear example of anti-ai panic actively hurting artists is the backlash that oka‎me-p, a voc‎aloid artist, got for using AI generated illustrations as the ACCOMPANIMENT for his songs:

and to be honest this is a huge problem regarding western voc‎afans who often have the emotional maturity of a peanut. youre so so so hellbent on demonizing others just for using a technology that is widely available to everyone, that youre willing to throw them under the bus and delegitimize everything they do just because it hurts your feelings well im not going to fucking stay quiet about that

who do you think youre talking to you stupid fucking bitch. god this person makes me so mad.

Anyways my point is: ai is like acupuncture; just like the latter can be used to treat or alleviate different ailments but it cant completely treat cancer like modern medicine would; AI can be complimentary, but it can NEVER replace actual labor. its merely a worktool! its merely meant to automatize daily tasks!!! its not your enemy i promise. Ok im tired of writing goo buh buh

[sukirichi]

Sooooooo ive been thinking about something.

Iris told rin she also didnt want to keep the baby, what would make sense since she claims she wants to keep her perfect image and her marriage... And yet she did the whole 'grab stomach, no no i wont drink' bs in front of us... So that makes me think that either she DOES want to keep the baby what would kinda fuck up her plans to keep her marriage...... Or she wanted us to know she was pregnant. Cause lets be honest here, until now iris has been rather cunning and manipulative, she not stupid so i dont think the whole 'oh no i can't drink *holds stomach worried*' shit was an accident cause she just acted out of panic. Like??? Doesnt make sense?

She claims she wants to befriend us and that she wants us to be happy with rin and yet she does that shit, what was a really big 'im hiding something' scream?

Like it doesnt feel like she wants that much for rin and us to be happy and yet if she truly doesn't that would go against her keeping her marriage safe and sound cause she obviously knows kyoomi is into us, so keeping rin with us is her best shot to keep her marriage safe. (well that and aborting the baby)

And lastly she cried when rin was 'breaking up' with her, like??? She kept saying she doesnt love him or if she does its not enough to screw with her stability (sorry love if you dont love him 'enough' to screw with your stability, you dont love him period) and then she cried about it? Like either she likes him what i dont believe or she just cant stomach the fact shell lose her puppet and his attention cause at this point i think that's exactly what she mostly craves from him. (and you know the whole 'my pussy was lonely, omi doesn't fuck me bla bla bla')

So rn i dont exactly know what iris truly wants but its sus as hell 👁️

Hooe i explained my thoughts well ahahha shift pause rambles

oooh you’re onto something but iris holding her stomach was purely a reflex move because she panicked + she knew she wasn’t supposed to be drinking 👁 she doesn’t want to keep the baby, yes, but neither is she out here planning to harm her health or the baby’s health just bcos of it. there’s no need for them to experience any discomfort when she can just get an abortion is what she thinks

hmmm i see where you’re going at but iris has a diff mindset 👁 her marriage was fine before because 1) kiyoomi never left her or said he wanted to be divorced even if he didn’t like her, 2) her affair with suna really didn’t change anything bcos they’ve been going at it for years and no one cares and no consequences come from it. but !! now, suna is getting somewhere (meaning he might just become king because he’s persistent) AND kiyoomi is falling for reader, so omi might leave her. there’s also a good chance that this ‘peace’ she’s kept will be ruined once suna becomes king. also she was crying before rin broke up with her (notice the details that said when rin arrived, iris already had red, puffy eyes and looked tired - implying she’d been crying for a long time prior to him ending their relationship.) she wasn’t crying because rin was breaking with up her, she was upset that her life might be ruined now that she’s 🤰🏻

as for what she truly wants, its plain and simple 🤫 she just wants to remain protected and comfortable within the luxury of the royal family

[couchie]

as an on-and-off elbow crutch user, lemme tell yall abt my experiences

it got kinda long so im putting it in the read-more

it slows you down

especially in stairs, you have to put both your feet in one step to go to the next. that means it takes me twice the time to go up or down stairs than an abled bodied person, and that is when they're not speeding

you really cant speed much, be it on flat road or on stairs. it doesnt speed u up much and the only thing that happens is you get tired from using so much effort

people having to wait for you makes you self-conscious, even if they are understanding about it

carrying anything is a nightmare. backpacks can throw your balance off. you cannot hang a bag on the handles of your crutches cause you have to LIFT those bitches. and if you're only using one crutch, carrying the bag in the empty hand also throws you off balance

you only have a maximum of one hand available at all times

you need people to get out of the way. you need more moving space and standing space for moving with crutches

the crutches make your hands sore. you're carrying your weight with them after all. you can need to take a moment to rest only to soothe your palms, even if your legs arent tired

sitting is always a hassle with leg injuries, and that becomes a bigger mess when you need to also find a non-obstructive place to put your crutches to. they need to be easily accessible to you

standing up is also very hard. it depends on what your disabilities are but the faster you find a way to comfortably stand up, the better

people *will* try and take your crutches. Do Not do that. i dont care if you're fascinated by them or if you wanna play around and swing urself or if u wanna hold onto them while i sit. unless i explicitly ask you to, do Not take my crutches. and if you do, don't set it down anywhere, hand it off to somebody else, or leave it somewhere i cant get to. wait for further instructions. do i want you to put them at somewhere specific? do i want you to give them back to me? do what i want you to with them, nothing more and nothing less

people get curious and it gets really tiring to answer the same questions. i dont owe you an explanation and i dont want your curiosity or your pity

yes it's real sad that your distant relative also had one accident so they had to use crutches too. yeah there are canes and underarm crutches and wheelchairs but this is what i am using. yes people may need them for different reasons and it's not your place to judge or question it. can i please keep walking?

crutches get dirty from being used everywhere and the handles sweaty from your palms and they need cleaning

you will get looks no matter what aid you are using

idk if it's just me but going downhill is very hard with crutches. uphill too but when it's downhill i'm also afraid of falling and rolling downhill 😭

getting in and out of cars is a hassle. btw, for safety, you should put your crutches on the ground under your feet

acquiring a shower stool might just be what you need. also get non-slip plastic rugs to lay on the bathtub/shower floor. getting someone to help you shower isnt shameful

if you drop something, woe is you. where do you put your crutches? how do you crouch to get them? the best thing to do, in that case, is to ask for help. people wont mind, believe me. and if you're alone, be careful and take your time

creaky crutches are the worst💔💔

being able to walk without crutches doesnt mean ur faking. not having more pain without crutches doesnt mean ur faking. stop being so hard on yourself

it's not our duty to educate people. if you're so curious go do a basic google search before questioning me. because, consider how many times i get the same questions in the same day

seeing another mobility aid user brings a sense of belonging and you bring the same feeling to people without visible disabilities

be unapologetically yourself. take up space. dont be sorry for needing aid

take care. i love you 🫶

[sparkdoesart]

ok ill bite, whats up with the engineers au?

whats the b1 crew and the b4 crew doing in the same place at the same time? is grace around somewhere? and what are they engineering about (and is ryan okay)

Aushjdjsk ok ok yes yes yes thank you look at my little guys

Answering ur questions in order,,,,

Uhhhhh its an au thats mostly focused on ryan because. Look at me. I just like him ok.

And uh before i explain anything its important to note that the train is much different in this au than in canon. Its still the same train its just. Amelia did things differently.

Ok, so first why are tulip and ryan even anywhere near each other?

Because i squished the timeline together as much as i possibly could. This all takes place somewhere close to current day

(Also hope u dont mind,, for the art i made them cats bc it makes this so much easier)

Wheres grace??

Shes here too! And simon!

Sorry but ive removed hazel and tuba completely from this because thats just. Too much for my brain to keep up with. They never meet her. As i said. The train is different. Theres a lot more of the stewards everywhere and theyre very hostile. So simon and grace get kinda saved by ryans little group(him jesse and min),,,, they end up just going with them because ryans very insistent on joining them to find the apex. Uhhh next!

What are they engineering???

Uhm. Everything??

The train is kinda fucked so theyre doing their best to help anyone they find

Theres. So much. Uhhh theyve mostly given up on leaving too. Tulip is the first person they meet in a WHILEEE that actually wants to go home.

Ryan and mins numbers r not functioning properly, jesse lost lake and wants to find them again, and simon and grace are about the same as in the show

Anywayyyyy

Is ryan okay?

...

Are any of them...?

But uhm. No not really.

Fun little thing, none of them got on at the same time. And hes been here like. Way too long. And also hes a little shit that likes getting in the way of what amelia is doing. They dont like each other. My brain is not functioning enough for it rn bc its getting late but instead of just. Killing him or something. (Like she tries to do to tulip in the last episode of book 1) she just doesnt. She specifically keeps him alive. Idk man hes not complaining (...maybe he is just a little but its fine)

That probably made no sense but im so tired and its so hot in here good god auhekdhdkjd

Ask more questions if you want! I will empty this ask box eventually!!!

[pitynostars]

ok so first things first, i loooove gatwa's doctor so much already. if nothing else, i love the masterclass in acting he's putting on, his expressiveness is so impressive. he brings a very fun energy to the role

the church on ruby road has me feeling a bit mixed as well. the plot was kind of meh, and i didn't like how in the alternate universe ruby's mum was just so mean without her. it didn't make sense. like what makes ruby so special, hm 🤨 what's this one white blond baby got that all the other babies in the world don't 🤨 i know the point was to show how much ruby meant to her mum, but like. there are other ways to do it than have a complete 180 in characterization.

i'm honestly not super interested in the mystery of ruby's parentage (which apparently seems like it will be a huge thing unless they're just making stuff up to fake us out, in which case, good on them). but i don't want it to be some big reveal i'm sorry 😩 especially not because if it is, people will bend over backwards to say how great storytelling it is when they'd never say that if moffat did a plot like this. i hadn't even considered the possibility really, when i'd first watched it, i thought it's just not that deep, but maybe i'm wrong. the people who are theorizing that ruby is rose and tentoo's daughter are sooo funny though like

ur only saying that because she's blond and we all know nobody on this show can be blond without being related to The Blond(tm) 🙄

that literally means they abandoned their kid. yes. such good parents 😫

i also feel like we didn't....really get to know ruby that well? i'll reserve judgement to give them more time obviously, and millie seems very green (not a judgement on her, and she and ncuti seem to have a lot of fun energy together) so there's still time and there's a lot of time in general for the stories to get going, and it had to do double duty as a christmas special and an intro episode for both new doctor and new companion so like, my feelings may also change with time. anyways those are my thots for now

yesss i was sold on gatwa very quickly i just hope he doesn't become 10th doctor rehash number 2345932853845 i am so tired. give him something new. also praying him and ruby don't have a romance angle there were a couple of moments in CORR i was like. GOD NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO NOT AGAIN.

CORR plot being meh i agreeee but also xmas specials plot is a lot of times like a wafer and as someone who watched it quite roasted ngl i kinda appreciated it 😂

YEAH omhg tho with ruby disappearing and her mum (i want to say carla??) completely changing as a person??? i get that the point was supposed to be like one little change can make such an impact etc etc as well. but also i was just like. .... ok but what about the other kids wasnt good enuf ???? maybe i'm a cynic lol. but fr have another MORE kids on the wall bc she's trying to fill a gap she doesn't know is from what !!!! IMAGINE.... especially with it being sort of set up as a doctor/companions parallel oh my god

nooo oh my god i know what you mean about rubys parents i like that theyre setting it up as a counter to 13s "it doesn't matter i'm good as i am my past doesnt define me" etc. but i really want it to not be interesting. i want her parents to just be like. normal people who had to make a hard choice lol. oh my god. i just realised. we're gonna go thru a fucking rey star wars arc with her im gonna lose it byee... imagine she ends the series like "im ruby doctor" :) i would quit watching.

but yeah 100% it's gonna be a big thing. atm i dont care but i guess we'll see and hope they do something interesting with it.... prayers she's an alien tbf

rose and tentoo would be terrible parents tbf i said what i said.

YEAH i know what you mean i feel like that about gatwa too i think its hard making the first intro for both an xmas special because it has to be kinda silly and rompy so you cant rlly get too into the grit of the characters?? still reserving judgement on them both, but its taken me a while to warm up to like. everyone in dr who since bill--- wait i take that back i loved bel in flux from like her first scene but she's not a doc or companion.

[powerpolyculeshowdown]

Lime for the poll runners’ ask game?

Lime -> participant(s) you’re rooting for the most?

i don't want to sway the votes so i won't do any propaganda for them after the poll starts BUT it's Wu Zetian/Li Shimin/Gao Yizhi from Iron Widow i just love the way their relationship develops so much and as someone whos unable to actually pick up a book and focus on it, the fact that i read iron widow in 4 days is amazing im still proud of that as silly as it is

yknow what ill use this as an opportunity to ramble about them askdgakdjk spoilers ahead but ill try to keep the major stuff out

for context the book has pacific rim style mechas, but instead of being drift compatible or whatever its usually a male pilot and his concubine whose life force he usually drains in order to pilot the thing, but theres a LOT of propaganda that makes girls want to be concubines, or families might wanna send their daughters for the money. im simplifying it a LOT especially cause theres more info u only learn later on as zetian herself finds out but anyway

at the start of the book zetian and yizhi are besties who obviously have feelings for each other. zetian is poor while hes very rich so their friendship is kind of a secret and they meet in the woods which i think is cute, point is its p clear zetian tries to mantain a distance, not allowing herself to admit her feelings. for reasons i wont say zetian decided to become a concubine to one of the like bigger more badass guys even if she doesnt believe the propaganda and knows she might die, she only tells yizhi this the day before

he shows up at her house the next day begging her family to let him marry her?????? which is sweet because he wants to protect her but that isnt gonna work bestie sorry she's a woman w a mission

so anyway she goes to the concubine thing and shes surprisingly powerful "for a girl" which yeah thats a super common trope but shes so much more than just the strong protagonist. shes extremely powerful in every sense of the word imo and i love her so much and i wish the world hadnt been so cruel that she had to become so strong. but anyway the guy she wants to pilot w picks her. MAJOR SPOILER they have to pilot the mecha on day 1 cause they're under attack and uhhh she kills him lol lmao she drains her life force instead which supposedly is UNHEARD OF

so they cant just kill her off cause that'd look bad instead they send her to be the concubine of the strongest guy (all of his concubines die after 1 fight) and thats Li Shimin my beloved my little meow meow hes looked down on and kinda treated like an animal cause hes a criminal and the only reason he gets to be a pilot is his powerful qi. anyway shes forced to live w him and turns out hes just a lil guy. like hes very big and scary looking but hes just a tired man pls he needs a break. she fucking survived piloting w him which nobody expected. so now theres a lotta stuff going on i wont get into but some ppl arent happy w this duo cause they're both very powerful and not exactly happy to serve. and Shimin has a drink problem.

IN ENTERS GAO YIZHI hes back babey!!! and he decides to help shimin w his alcoholism. its funny cause when they first meet his crush on li shimin is so fucking obvious zetian is like "huh i always suspected he liked guys too" but li shimin is just pissed cause this is the guy who wants to make him stop drinking

theres like 1 moment of jealousy that i can remember when li shimin realizes zetian and yizhi have a thing going on but its settled very quickly and they all kiss.

back to the drift compatible thing: at one point in the final battle zetian and shimin need more power and yizhi literally lends them his qi (its extremely rare for a third person to help) and its beautiful and they are so in love and i cant wait for the sequel

idk if any of that is coherent i kinda stopped thinking and just typed sorry for rambling on ur ask im just very passionate about them i love them so much i love iron widow so much i love xiran jay zhao so much (the writer) (you might know them from the live action mulan analysis video that went viral back when that movie came out) (check out their yt channel)

[bagheadart]

Blood Binds

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Chapter 1) Xiao x reader, angst to comfort, gender neutral, TW: Death, Su¡c¡de Ideation, Blood (PLEASE TELL ME IF I MISSED ANY!)

A/n: I kinda wrote this at 2 in the god damn morning sipping a monster💪 so sorry if suck @$$.Not proofread (sorry for the grammar errors I hate grammar sm IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE FKDKJRHKDHISJRUNDHRU)(I can’t spell for the life for me if you can’t tell😌 so sorry if I missed spelled something or it autocorrected to some weird crap)

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The crystallized flowers that a line their body perfectly, they’re stunning. Even when one’s body is slowly rotting and disappearing from this word and entering the next, how can someone look so ethereal, as if the heaven themselves handcraft every inch and fiber of this beings body to make if perfect, just perfect.

How could I let them go? Let this feeling go? All this tied to them go? I didn’t do it attentionaly, I would never. I want to stay by them side forever until our last dying breath. But as always, time is the greatest thief and took them away from me. And I let it happen.

They wasn’t lying when they said red is their color. I fit them perfectly, no matter how messily their blood sprayed on the grass and flowers around them,they looked beautiful.

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The feeling of falling, a cold sweat of fear run up my spine, forcing me to jolt awake from my nightmare filled slumber. the sound of heavy breathing fill the room. the taste of metallic crimson blood fill my mouth. panic bubbles and rises filling my body with it. my thoughts filling my head it hurts to think, to move, to swallow, to allow myself to fill my lungs with much needed air, in fear it will all be to much and I will explode. My eyes dart around looking, seeking for an answer, an answer to. Make. This. Stop.

Breathe, remember breathe.

But Im tired of it, I’m tired of needing to remind myself to breathe, to live. I ache for the day all of this will stop. The fear, the nightmares, the anger, the sadness, the panic, the pain. Then I i won’t have to remind myself to breathe. Because I won’t need to. I’ll just have to let the darkness in case me, and then, then I can see them once again.

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(A/n: Sorry it was hella short but my brain went dead, Idek if anyone will read this… welp that’s fine I’ll try and complete this!!!!)

[revoltinglittleworm]

i really do feel at a loss rn financially lmfao i think i have about.. $50 and thats before any kind of bills need to be paid... *clown emoji* (sorry im on desktop)

ive been thinking i need to make new tshirts to sell but the ones ive made in recent time havent been selling as well as my old ones, and my sales have dropped sooo much. idk i honestly feel like i dont have any ideas.

i’d love to make money off of prints or artwork like paintings but idk. i always feel unsatisfied with my work, to the point where i either give up or think no one would even want it. ive had a listing of one of my paintings on etsy for awhile, and its in someones cart but it hasnt been purchased yet (i listed it for $300 lol). ig i just genuinely feel like a subpar artist... i feel amateur and mediocre at everything i do, the only thing i ever see potential in is my music and even with that i think is not great lmao. i forgive myself more for that though because music is new to me still and is hard and i think im decent for someone who is still a beginner.

i wish i could offer the same space to myself with my other endeavors, but its hard, especially when the main thing on my mind is money. it really doesnt help the patience and skill that art requires when you are horribly broke and feel like you need to create in order to afford basic necessities.

so ig im just seeking any kind of advice or words, i dunno. i have a fine job right now its just become very monotonous and i dont make much money from it. ive grown tired of it and would love to be supporting myself on my own, through art or creativity in some kind of way.

i begin to feel hopeless about everything when im broke. i question myself and my abilities. ive been practicing guitar again tho, and it feels nice. i want to be able to improve and be able to play even if just at an intermediate level, though of course id love to be amazing at it in the future. other than that i havent been working on ableton, and i havent finished a song in forever.... i hate all my old songs because i can sense a sort of holding back and reluctance in them that i despise and am desperately trying to move past. so most of my old songs are duds because i didnt approach them in the way i need to and im not sure if they are fixable tbh...

anyway idk what else to say im just kinda down today. i go back to work tomorrow so thats probably why. i just wanna live a good life and enjoy things and love what i create. 

[st4rryskiesc0]

The October-November con chronicles

That last post had me thinking about all the convention moments running around in the little brain of mine, so im posting them all there. MY BLOG MY POSTS!!!

FanX

I met a mumbo jumbo and I remember my big ear wings was in their face in the photo and i felt so bad. At least they had a little pesky bird plush they let me hold!!!

I was exhausted and nervous and saw a quackity cosplayer and so I ran up to them and said "oh my god i love your cosplay it looks so good!!" and they had friends around them and i said "all your lcosplays look so good oh my god its just so good all of you" and i just kept rambling because i was just so tired and didnt know how to human and they looked so awkward and they gave me a little casino coin as a gift and i felt so bad so im sorry if you ever see this quackity cosplayer in the pit :sob:

I met a tango and we stood in the middle of the stands area and he came up and shook my hand and we just kept shaking hands while we talked it was so fun !

THERE WERE SO MANY DREAM SMP COSPLAYERS MY GOD!!! all of them were so good though

I met a skeppy and I was like "oh my god have you found a badboyhalo yet?" THEIR FRIEND WAS BAD SOBBING CRYING THROWING UP I DIDNT EVEN REALIZE THEY WERE THERE!!! we laughed about it and moved on so it was okay :3

i met a double life impulse and Bdubs and i asked them "so ive noticed most people this year that are matching cosplay are partners, are you guys partners or just friends??" because i was trying to get a grasp on the FanX cosplayers economy and norms if that makes sense??? they were going as just friends they both had separate partners i was so embarassed sobbnig crying they understood though it wasnt a big deal

Anime Banzai

As soon as I got there I saw a wilbur soot cosplayer and went up to say hi and THERE WAS A CODFATHER JIMMY THERE!!! They recognized my Etho cosplay as *etho* and not kakashi and we just hung out the entire day it was amazing

When I first got there my spirit halloween kakashi mask was too tight because duh spirit halloween and you could see my entire mouth outline it was HORRIBLE i took back ups just in case but my only picture with codfather jimmy is with my too-tight kakashi mask and it kinda sucks ;w; it's alright though, we had so much fun it doesnt really matter

There was this little girl outside where there was a DJ type thing and she danced and the DJ danced with her and it was so cute. One of the singers from the Idol competition earlier came up and taught her how to do some dances and it was absolutely adorable, I loved it

This little kid also came up to me, codfather, and their friend cosplaying as toadette (? im not sure, i didnt ask what exactly they were all i knew was that it was amazing cosplay) with their little pochita stuffie they got and made gave us a bonk on the head with him and it was incredible and adorable

The idol competition was so cool but the announcer was ABWHEYGUTF it was... strange... between every performance they said "can i get an uwu?" it was horrible SOBBING CRYING it was still so fun though, he was very charming besides for that whole fiasco

during that same cosplay ocmpetition i didnt really know how to cheer???? i dont know, same thing as Fanx where I was exhausted and nervous and i just completely forgot how to person

this older guy came up to me and said "okay whats with the canada??" because for my etho cosplay I had a canada patch on my arm and I had to explain to him "im so sorry im not kakashi its a completely different character" and he walked away so confused and i felt so bad because he was an older lad and i felt like id just blown his mind and it was so awkward

thats it, fanx and anime banzai were so fun and im so glad I went :DD i met so many fun people and everyone was so nice !!